After being handed a broken heart,
The Lord whispered to her, "Is my love enough?"
He wanted to heal her.
He wanted to mend her broken pieces
from the inside out.
Her lips spoke "yes" but her actions didn't match.
He was seeking her, yet she was seeking "it".
She desired a more tangible healing.
A healing that led to more hurt, more pain.
Months later after filling voids with
everything but Him, she began
to realize how desperately she needed His love.
So she made the choice to surrender.
With tear stained cheeks, she cried out,
"Jesus I'm sorry!" she was all His and she meant it.
Again, He softly whispered to her,
"Is MY Love enough?"
This time with a pure heart she smiled
The willingness to be broken. Ahhhhhh, what a glorious place.
During [a] retreat that I [attended] the Lord began to stir some things up inside of me. I recognized that I had been living parts of my life without Him. I realized that I needed to make a choice to be all in.
After the retreat I began to realize that after Kay, my late husband, passed I was healing; but a good portion of my healing was done by my hands and not by God's [hands]. It's as if I entered a hospital in need of heart surgery; consented to allowing the surgeon to do his job; but, when he began to work I sat up and took over. It's as if I told God, "thanks for starting it out, it's cool, I got it from here."
God heals from the inside out. After a while I didn't want my insides touched. I was too afraid that He'd take away things that I grew accustomed to. Too afraid that He'd remove people out of my life; things out of my life. So I became my own pilot. A pilot to a plane that I didn't even know how to fly.
Thank you God for stepping in before I crashed and burned.
My word for this year is "surrender". It wasn't easy at first but 27 days in and I'm no longer bucking. I'm expectant.
I'm His and He is mine.
Eleitta Lorraine is a mother, writer, speaker, hope dealer and Joy Restoration Coach who just so happens to be studying to become a Christian Counselor (2017 Candidate). She is the owner of @eleitta_lorraine, an Instagram page that encourages men, women and children who are grieving the loss of a loved one or suffered any type of traumatic life experience. She is an expert in grief counseling and shares her life with her three sons, family and friends in Delaware.
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